I see myself contented with what I currently have. Surviving each day and doing more bit by bit one day at a time is how I see myself grow. Learning things for improvement and being more than what I can be is the usual advice everyone gives for himself. It’s the advice instinctively taken and only a few could live up to their full potential if they are determined enough to do much, much more.
Still I aspire for something deeper and more meaningful.
Yes, we all have problems but as my boyfriend constantly reminds me, problems are there to make us grow and as long as we maintain a positive outlook and continue working on our aspirations with us, things will work out fine.
For the upcoming New Year, instead of a New Year’s resolution, I’d rather I answer the following questions and stick to my priorities for myself. The questions below are considered for Self-Improvement purposes. Why don’t you copy and paste these questions for yourself and answer them on your blog so your friends may do the same. Consider this as guide for your life in the New Year.
1. What do I really want?
The question of the ages. So many things to do but so little time.
I want to stick to my current job in web development. It’s the best of both worlds for me. Web Design and Online Marketing, which are the two things I want to learn more. I want to have my online business someday, may it be an online store or online business, so this is a stepping stone for that goal.
2. Should I really change?
My boyfriend knows more of my fears than anybody else. You might think of it awkward that he knows more than my family and friends. True, I do find it weird and sometimes selfish for me to confide my most personal thoughts to him but it is with him that I get to be really myself without family expectations or friends immediately judging me. I’m not saying that my friends judge me negatively but honestly, there are things that you can’t tell your friends too right?
I want to fight those fears. I want to overcome them. I want to overcome my shyness. I want to more independent. I want my cynicism, to at least lessen. It’s hard to change but at least I might be able to do so bit by bit and maybe one day, I’ll realize that everything has changed.
3. What’s the bright side in all of this?
Change is constant and I could always change for the better. The change is not only for myself but also for those around me.
4. Am I comfortable with what I’m doing?
I think it is not a matter if I am comfortable with what I’m doing right now. It’s a matter if I can do it. For example, if you’re doing a project for the first time, you could expect to have problems at first and not do the job correctly. After a while, you will get the ropes of what you’re doing and you realize you learned something new that adds to your growth.
At the moment, I get easily tired with my current demanding job and with my responsibilities at home. Yet, I am able to juggle everything correctly and I get things done. So yes, in a way, I am already comfortable learning more.
5. Have I done enough for myself?
Honestly, no. There is more I want to do. Yet, with my responsibilities and obligations, I am somehow ‘tied-down’ and don’t have the ‘I-can-go-out-anywhere-and-everywhere’ type of life people my age have. I’m working on it though. There are places I want to go and things I want to do.
6. Am I happy at where I am today?
I am satisfied though I want more. Call me greedy or selfish but I am human and I won’t deny I want more than what I have and I am working my way to have them.
Though I have to say, changes have happened to me for the better. I now have a very supportive and loving boyfriend. My family issues may have not died down but it has lessened. Opportunities are coming my way I just have to work my way with them.
So yes, things are happening for the better. I’m glad.
7. Am I appealing to the opposite sex?
I believe I am. Hehe. My boyfriend says I’m pretty (though he may be biased LOL ) and well, other people are somehow showing an interest at me but of course, I don’t care about them. I’m happy with my guy.
8. How much could I have?
I want more and I will work to get them.
9. What motivates me?
I want to be financially stable one day. Maybe even more. I know it’s everybody’s motivation but I believe this really motivates be because I want to be independent one day. My own house, my own car, my own business, etc.
10. What Really Makes You Tick?
I want a good future. A future wherein I could travel of maybe shop till I drop without dropping a sweat because of bills. I want to be able to stand on my own two feet.
