Things had been going… ‘swiftly’, with me actually expecting the changes, riding along the opportunities, achieving a bit of light-headedness I haven’t felt for the longest time.
This is my last week in the office. I resigned a week ago for seen (not unseen, mind) circumstances and I voluntarily took the risk of leaving a familial sanctuary of three years. Unlike previous times of almost resigning from my ‘soon-to-be-over’ position in the agency due to various reasons, I am not having any feelings of sadness. Of course, I will miss my boss, my officemates, my cubicle, my files, my computer, the laughs, the hassles, the christmas parties, seminars, gatherings, etc., but the time I have spent here were truly worthwhile, and I find myself visiting afterwards. I have this notion that my time here has truly taken its toll and my time in the industry has reached its limit. I’m getting bored, apprehensive, I want something else.
I feel like going through another field, meeting new people and taking on new opportunities. In truth, there is still no definite plan on what I am to do next, since I haven’t landed on a new job to immediately compensate my leaving. Plans are in motion but aren’t following the timeframe, as most things happan in life.
But, somehow, there aren’t tears like before. Expecations, changes, risks, and yes, fear… everything is playing. swirling in a void of confusion… but… I have the feeling that things will work out fine.
Already, some changes has happened. I already gave this blog a new look. Also added plugins to expand blog functionalities and took on the opportunity of using paypal for various online oppportunities. I hope I can hack these things even without dsl at home. I just need enough moolah to subscribe to one. At the moment, I have to settle with dial-up.
With my resignation, of course, I am looking for a new job, applying to different sources. What is different though, I seem to process everythingnonchantly, as if I know things will work out fine though what I just did is a risk. A certain of confidence for life seem to penetrate my cynicism, its… refreshing.
I’m also taking a bit more interest in reading japanese related publications. Both japanese and english books on its culture, music, lifestlye etc. I had lost my interest on the subject for a long time and ceased in continuing my language studies. The interest has awakened and I hope this time, I maintain my interest to the best of my abilities. I’ll study on it again and this time, try my best to stick to it so I may soon reach a level of fluency.
And the biggest change of all: I got myself a boyfriend, my first one at that XDDD After all cynicisms and the years of vowing to myself the lfe of a hermit, here he is. :D The experience is giving me quite a different perspective… positively.
TO HIM: Luv Ya!
