I’ve been on a week-long hiatus.
Not because I didn’t have the urge to blog. I wanted to. I WANT to! But work and life got in the way to actually make my brain and body still function at the end of the day to post anything.
But not now, not on the last day before I turn 29… the last age I will get in the line of 2 before I hit the line of 3.
Is it a big deal?
In a way it is.
I will soon be nearing 30 and I still don’t know what to do with my life.
My family, financial and work issues have not reached a solution and I’m still coping with it.
My heart was broken earlier this year and up to now, honestly, I’m still doing my best to null the pain away. The bastard did not give me the decent respect for a breakup. The person I thought who will understand my flaws and still bear with me (as I did with him), didn’t live up to the relationship.
And against all these odds…
The doors opened for more friends (old and new)…
I finally realized the beauty (inner and outer) I had all along. Friends, please go along, it is my post after all. LOL…
I had the urge to blog constantly (despite time constraints)…
I was able to do a “simple” model photoshoot with friends and it boosted my confidence. And another one is coming…
I actually made a birthday wishlist, which I never did before…
I am more active on Facebook and on other social networks, realizing how many friends I never thought I had and I feel like its time to make up for the time I lost not being in communication with them. Even if I can’t be with everyone physically, at least I could reach them and be updated with their lives via the Internet. Hooray Internet!
Right now, I hear my dad’s radio playing Happy Birthday. In truth, I’m never the one to expect much on my birthdays. It changed though when my ex and I were still together. Now, I feel like back to square one.
But NO. Things have changed.
I HAVE CHANGED. And this turning point of 29 will be a witness to those changes.
I can’t say I’m happy. I can’t say I’m sad either.
I’m in this vertigo of feeling nothing but at the same time feeling something from the cosmos that something is coming my way. Something that will change my life in a positive way I never expected.
It’s a waiting game of sorts. Something I have to ponder on when the time arrives.
For some strange reason, the music below tells a lot of my current emotions. Usually, Canon is played at weddings (as if that is happening to me). As of this moment, the music personifies my feelings of waiting and expectations… of fear and adventure…
Pachelbel’s canon in D Major – Very nice version
So cheers to tomorrow… for my birthday.












